10 things I hate about you !!

I hate it when you play so ineccent.


I hate it when you act so pure


I hate it when you make me feel inscure and so unsure


I hate how you kept pushing me way too long...


I hate how you nver admit that youer wrong


I hate everything we became


I hate how you made me drawin in shame


I hate what you've done with my life


I hate how u carelessly cut me just like a knife


I hate how i was so wrong about you...


and everything u did and still do ....

Happy memories .. What I have of them is very few

I tried to chase these dark thoughts away



But they keep hunting me everyday



I have nowhere to run



No place to go



Hiding from the sun



Trying to break through



Life feels so wrong



I don't feel like I belong



All I see is emptiness



All I hear is silence



And it's tearing me apart



To see that darkness taking a hold of my heart



Am I on the wrong lane?



Or am I just going insain?

I want to feel the rain pour down down on me

And wash away


my pain and agony


Life is getting darker and darker each day


leading me astray


im tierd


I can no longer take it


im suffreing


and I can no longer fake it


im dying


and theres noway im gonna make it


and since thats all I'll ever be


please let go of me


and let me set my soul free

why do I always feel guilty?!

something is missing,,

I feel it in my soul

Something is missing

Im not feeling like a whole

Is it 'cause you're not here?

Is it 'cause I feel special when your near?

falling for you is my biggest fear...

the way you look at me is something I can't ignor

The look on your eyes is something I've never seen before

and I wish that you just didn't care

I hope you understand,, 'Cause this guilt I can not bare...

c'est trop

Im sick of writting about the pain and turture

But lately thats all what my eyes can capture

after what you did, my visions turned black

how do you expect me to forgive you,

you stabed me in the back

you left a huge crack

Your face is huntin me everywhere I go

and the thought of you is killing me slow

you ripped the life out of my soul

you snatched the joy out from my eyes

and now I'll never be a whole

and its all thanks to your lies


but now I don't even care enough to hate you


and these are the last words I'll waste on you

you're not worth it

This is the last thought I'll have of you

and inside I'll burry all my pain,

and hope to never see you ever again,,

Have u ever wondered?!

Who am I? who iam and who I wanna be

Where to go? Where ever life takes me

What to do? what ever I feel like doing

Who to trust? Nobody!

How to live? like its my last day

How to be? just me

How to see? deeply

I wanna feel like i exist

And when I die, I wanna be missed

Im lost, It's true

Im alone, I know

And my wounds may never heal

but i will never kneel

and i know it's never too late to start again

its never impossible to forget the pain

I dont wanna forget the past

I just need to let it go

Time passes by very fast

and life is not worth feeling low

Help us help them,,,

All alone, Like everytime

Here iam, trying to speak in a rhyme

All alone again,

Trying to hide my pain

Trying to tell the story of "ME"

escaping from yestersay,

and scared of all the pain theres yet to be

The wind is blowing in my face making me feel like life is a race

People walkin by , all acting like they know,

But they dont have a clue about what I feel inside

and my broken pride

Life was Not

quite what I thought

Part of me wants to believe its worth living

But part of me is already dead

I have nothing more worth giving and im haning by a threade

and yet you all keep sayin: keep on hopeing , keep on believing

but right now its hard to even keep on breathing.

Life

Life is too short to grief

Life is too short to follow rules



Life is too short to be someone you're not



Life Is preciouse



So add a little life to your age



and add a little age to your life

I hate life 'cause you are in it

I hate you for who you are

I hate you for what you do

I hate you for not being there

I hate you coz you didn't care

I hate you

'cause you have no idea how much it takes

for me to pay for your mistakes

I hate you

'cause everything im going trough is because of you

I hate you more and more everyday

and nothing will ever take that away

The person who deserve your tears will never make you cry

Thank you

Its been a long time

I havn't seen you in a while



but I stil remeber your sweet smile



I rememberd how you looked at me



and told me to be



who Iam and to never care what people think of me



I just wanted to thank you for making me see



the special girl I have in me

I wish you the best of luck with your life my dear friend

Im lying on my bed

Thinking of what you said

I wanted to believe in you

but now there's nothing left for me to do

I guess it's over now

I guess it's time to let you go

I just have to forget you

I have to learn how to be strong

I have to move on

Your memory will fade away with time

and soon you wont be worth a dime

.....

I'm trying so hard to forget you

but everytime I close my eyes I still see you


I use to hate to see you gone

but now I wish you'd go away


coz I've learned how to be strong

and I don't want you to stay


After all the lies you said

After all the things you did

After all you put me through

Could I still be in love with you?

some of my drawings..

It hurts to look back, but I can't seem to forget

When I look back on how good it use to be

I can't help myself and cry

Coz I thought you and I will be

Together till we die

I thought that nothing could come between us two

and we'll never be apart

but I guess no one knew

that u could break my heart

But I don't regret the time we spent together

I don't regret the love I had for you

even thought u said what ever

to me it will alwyas remain true

Promises you never kept

You promised me You'd love me


You promised me you'd care



You promised me you'd be there


You promised me I swear



You promised me forever


You said We'll be together



You promised and You promised


But in the end You said 'WHAT EVER'

What's Love?

You made me believe you loved me

and your life was nothin without me

your words seemed so true

How stupid was I to fall in love with you

but now I feel stronger somehow

and one day I'm gonna forget your name

one day I'm gonna make you feel the same

So Just go

coz I'm so over you

Just go

I dont wanna see you

Just go

Coz I'll never forgive you

And what hurts the most Is that I trusted You

And that was my bigest Mistake

Awalk to remeber

**Awalk to remeber **

I'll Always remember the time I spent Loving you

I'll never Forget Cause your love was so

true

I was falling apart Not knowing what to do

I was lost till the day i met you

you changed my life and turned it all around

you showed me where happiness can be truly found

but i never thought I'd have to let you go

I just never saw my life without you

but now You have to go

and there's nothing I can do

To stop life from taking you

But before you go

there is one thing I need You to know

One thing I promise You

I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING YOU

I miss you

I miss YOU

I miss YOU so

Without YOU

I have nowhere to go

I miss YOU so bad

without YOU I feel so sad

and no matter what I do

I just can't Let go of YOU

when YOU are not with me

I lose my well to live

When YOU are not with me

I have nothing more to give

I miss YOU so please Come back

and put my life back on the track

im sorry.

Im sorry if I hurt you

and I know I did

Im sorry for all the words I said

I cry myself to sleep everynight

trying to forget our fight

you're my only best friend

and I wanna keep it that way

cos I cant live without you

not for one day

so can you forgive me for what I said ?

can you trust me after what I did?

can we let go of all the pain?

can we be friends again?

Enough

Im sorry I gotta go

and I know im gonna miss u so

I'm sorry I have To leave

COZ I can't spend my life in grief

I'm sorry I can no longer stay

cause i can't live that way

and with my feelings I can't play

I love you I must admit

but you hurt me and I can't just forget

My heart is trying so hard to let you go

but that wont happen I know

but still I gotta go

My first poem

Sometimes when I'm alone and feeling so blue

I think of all the times we went trough

I think of all the things we had

the good ones and the bad

I just never thought That you'd be the one

who would make me feel so sad