Happy memories .. What I have of them is very few

I tried to chase these dark thoughts away



But they keep hunting me everyday



I have nowhere to run



No place to go



Hiding from the sun



Trying to break through



Life feels so wrong



I don't feel like I belong



All I see is emptiness



All I hear is silence



And it's tearing me apart



To see that darkness taking a hold of my heart



Am I on the wrong lane?



Or am I just going insain?

I want to feel the rain pour down down on me

And wash away


my pain and agony


Life is getting darker and darker each day


leading me astray


im tierd


I can no longer take it


im suffreing


and I can no longer fake it


im dying


and theres noway im gonna make it


and since thats all I'll ever be


please let go of me


and let me set my soul free

why do I always feel guilty?!

something is missing,,

I feel it in my soul

Something is missing

Im not feeling like a whole

Is it 'cause you're not here?

Is it 'cause I feel special when your near?

falling for you is my biggest fear...

the way you look at me is something I can't ignor

The look on your eyes is something I've never seen before

and I wish that you just didn't care

I hope you understand,, 'Cause this guilt I can not bare...

c'est trop

Im sick of writting about the pain and turture

But lately thats all what my eyes can capture

after what you did, my visions turned black

how do you expect me to forgive you,

you stabed me in the back

you left a huge crack

Your face is huntin me everywhere I go

and the thought of you is killing me slow

you ripped the life out of my soul

you snatched the joy out from my eyes

and now I'll never be a whole

and its all thanks to your lies


but now I don't even care enough to hate you


and these are the last words I'll waste on you

you're not worth it

This is the last thought I'll have of you

and inside I'll burry all my pain,

and hope to never see you ever again,,

Have u ever wondered?!

Who am I? who iam and who I wanna be

Where to go? Where ever life takes me

What to do? what ever I feel like doing

Who to trust? Nobody!

How to live? like its my last day

How to be? just me

How to see? deeply

I wanna feel like i exist

And when I die, I wanna be missed

Im lost, It's true

Im alone, I know

And my wounds may never heal

but i will never kneel

and i know it's never too late to start again

its never impossible to forget the pain

I dont wanna forget the past

I just need to let it go

Time passes by very fast

and life is not worth feeling low

Help us help them,,,

All alone, Like everytime

Here iam, trying to speak in a rhyme

All alone again,

Trying to hide my pain

Trying to tell the story of "ME"

escaping from yestersay,

and scared of all the pain theres yet to be

The wind is blowing in my face making me feel like life is a race

People walkin by , all acting like they know,

But they dont have a clue about what I feel inside

and my broken pride

Life was Not

quite what I thought

Part of me wants to believe its worth living

But part of me is already dead

I have nothing more worth giving and im haning by a threade

and yet you all keep sayin: keep on hopeing , keep on believing

but right now its hard to even keep on breathing.